Being Off Schedule Makes Me Dizzy

I can’t seem to figure out what I want to eat today. I’ve been in grazing mood, but that means I’ll end up snacking and picking, and maybe not making the best choices. I’ve had a couple nuts, some seeds, a few animal crackers, and that’s not enough.

I hate trying to get back on track, because I feel like I’m so off course. My eating patterns were totally different when we were away, and we ate a more solid breakfast some days than I’m used to. I wake up and wonder if I should make a solid breakfast, or go back to my breakfast bar that’s high protein.

I love a spontaneous schedule, but I have such a hard time getting back on a pattern. See, the thing is, I need patterns. Without patterns, I’m a mess. I’m very inconsistent when I’m not on a schedule. I forget to do things like take my medicine, eat, and even lose track of time easier. I sound like I’m a toddler! That’s the thing, when I’m on a pattern, I make sure each thing gets accomplished, without it I flounder.

Now…schedule me an appointment, and I resent that you’re cutting into my time! Silly isn’t it? Maybe one day, I’ll figure out why I’m this way.